Contradict

Why would i do this to myself unwilling putting myself in a loveless positioning where my heart can only be poisoned by false hopes, false truths this is not where i am to be, dying slowly lost at sea the tears have rolled down and filled this abyss where my heart could not this is the end my love, the end of us, the end of me. i pushed but never could i be what you wanted only what you needed speechless my love has exclaimed to you that id be any and everything you wanted but the contradiction not what you needed.