Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Why would i do this to myself unwilling putting myself in a loveless positioning where my heart can only be poisoned by false hopes, false truths this is not where i am to be, dying slowly lost at sea the tears have rolled down and filled this abyss where my heart could not this is the end my love, the end of us, the end of me. i pushed but never could i be what you wanted only what you needed speechless my love has exclaimed to you that id be any and everything you wanted but the contradiction not what you needed.
Fear.. Was and always will be the destroyer, I didnt choose this, my existance wasnt meant for this, i dont belong here.. My hearts heavy now sinking below towards stomach to mix with bile slowly to be vomited with the rest. emotions run deep to root me where I stand stuck in a battle my heart is with fire, how beautiful your flame as i am drawn to its glimmering embers. If i touch then i will be burned though i am still drawn, still wanting to reach out. I think i love you..